You really are not born-again because you refuse to repent and believe in Christ to be regenerated. Whereas I did. Now then, I don't think you should assume we are both saved since God only saves one way. You're contradicting yourself. I for one would feel ugly and gross inside if I was saved the way you claim a person is saved. Your conscience can't sense this. If you have a verse I would be happy to help you with it. Just know there are no verses in the Bible for Total depravity or any of the 5 points of Calvinism. And many verses that speak against your faith. I try not to cast pearls before the swine. My prayers go out to you.