You've admitted that you didn't repent and believe in Christ to be regenerated. That's why you are not born-again. Since you prefer a selfish salvation, God won't save you.
God draws everyone to Christ but many such as yourself "draw back unto perdition" (Heb. 10.39). He's the "Savior of all men, specially those who believe" (Rom. 4.10). It wouldn't make much sense to say "Savior of all men who believe, specially those who believe."
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