That makes no sense at all that God pleads with people to receive new life by believing on Him after they already did. You are delusional.

When someone appeals to you to believe a certain fact, it is because you have not yet done it.

Surely, you are a mad.

The reason you have not received the gift of faith is because you don't search God out with all your heart and soul. You've put up a barrier of self and delusional ideas you have fabricated with it that feed your flesh. God says if you search Him out with all your heart and soul, you shall find Him. Trust in Him.

You can't save yourself delusionally by declaring you are irresistibly selected. Tear down your high place and shrine you have built for yourself called Total depravity and Calvinism. God will never receive you that way of yourself.

The one thing you can do is make a genuine choice for Christ. God has not prevented you from doing so no matter how depraved you have become. His grace is sufficient for all. Your god can't do this so God trumps your god every time.

You lose. You're on the losing team. The Bible declares the winners already.