alive,

I reject your god in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit because the Bible says we are not saved by works lest any man should boast. It really is that simple for me. We are saved by faith.

"For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast" (Eph. 2.8-9).

You sure are trying hard to rationalize your false faith. No amount of work could make up the gap between an infinitely great God and a sinner to get saved or be kept saved. God knows this that's why He gave His only begotten Son. To bad you don't accept who He says He is and what He requires of you, thus, you are going to Hell, having eternally separated yourself from the love of God and God Himself.

Since you reject Jesus for your false Christ naturally you reject His apostles His directly chose to set up the churches. At least your a consistent in your hostility.

It is really is quite sad you don't want to give your life to the Jesus who keeps who lets no one pluck His own out of His hand. What you prefer is a Jesus with an "out-clause"--an option to leave the marriage if you don't feel like you are really into it after awhile. The real Jesus and His Father won't save you to begin with with that kind of attitude. This shows you were never born-again, never saved, never given eternal life. Up to now you have just been living a lie. You're delusional.

Self-exaltation is at the core of your problem. Humility is not what you want to enter into repentantly the faith of a Christian to let go completely and place your trust in the Lord and Savior. You're too scared to let go of control of self.