True Repentance

Why can't you let go of something that you doubt? The cause is back then when the forming of the deception began to take place in the goings on of your emotion and initial mistaken assumptions. What were you assuming back then? This is the key. First ask yourself, what do you feel in those initial days of deception as you take yourself back. You’ll need to recover at a minimum your best former condition.

Use the crowbar, "I feel..." and whatever feeling comes forth, simply acknowledge it. Don't analyze your feelings, just let them come forth with the first word that presents itself. Several words of feelings may come out. Recall the scenario in your mind of what you were going through in those initial days. After you have used the crowbar and recalled the scenario surrounding the events of the deception, then ask yourself, what were you assuming? Just say "I assume..." and whatever was assumed, simply acknowledge it. Do this several times. You may have 5 items or 10 or even 20 things you had assumed in that scenario in those days.

With these several assumptions identified, then ask yourself, one by one, what is the truth of that assumption? Do that with each assumption you made and see if you come up with a different answer than was previously thought. This is part of deliverance as each sin needs to be repented of individually and specifically. This is the source of the deception why you can't seem to overcome something, in which you have locked in your subconscious, hidden away, some mistaken assumption(s). You should be deeply entrenched in recalling those days, feeling both the bits and pieces of emotion as well as recalling the events of that scenario, as you ask yourself, what is the truth of what you assumed, and the next assumption, and so on?

Now you are prepared to ask yourself, what are you blaming? You may be blaming 1 or 2 or more things. Say, “I blame…,” and whatever comes to mind is what you are passing blame off onto which had caused you to lose control of yourself. After you have realized what you were blaming, then ask yourself, can you take it back? Give a sincere and honest answer. If unable to take it back, then more repentance is needed by asking yourself again, what are you assuming, what is the truth of the assumption, and then, what are you blaming? Can you take back, and if you can, can you let it go? If the answer is affirmative, this is repentance. Once you reach the point where you no longer are blaming these other things, you should finally come the appreciation that you blame you because you are to blame (and then, again, let it go): this is taking responsibility back over you and your emotions and the consequences of those emotions.

By this repentance, you are prepared to receive salvation because you have repented like the baptism of repentance in water that John the Baptist gave, to prepare you to receive the atonement of Jesus Christ to wash away your sins before God the Father. God the Father will forgive you your sins and give you eternal life, for you would have fulfilled the condition for grace to enter into new life.

"But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin" (1 John 1.7).